Won't Stop Believing...

I REFUSE to give up on my dreams.  For some stupid reason I keep trying to barter with myself to find something almost as good that would make me almost as happy but I need to pursue my dreams.  I want to be a working gallery and museum artist, it's what I went to school for and have devoted the last twelve years of my life working towards.  That's right this is what I've been trying to do since high school, and no I don't give a crap that its been slow going.  While I have a lot of unrelated side projects that I think would be fun they are electives in my school of life and I want to focus on my major which is being an artist.  I'm still really sad that Work of Art got cancelled but I've applied to a reality show on MTV working with Kelly Cutrone, who's a PR expert that is looking to help out young creatives.  I'm hoping beyond all hope she'll pick me as one of her proteges and help me attain my dream of being a working artist.

Feeling an Extreme Need to Vent

So I really try not to let unfortunate individuals darken my mood, but sometimes its simply unavoidable. What is particularly frustrating about this particular incident is that I effectively don't have anyone I can vent to because I'm trying to shut off all contact with the person. The person first said that I wasn't a real artist and that I never make real work and that what work I do make sucks. Then this person recently made fun when a friends got mad at me for expecting her husband to show up for a project we're supposed to be partnering on when he's working on other projects instead. I really don't get people that go out of their way to tear other people down.

 The individual in question isn't even a visual artist she's a fucking writer.  What the fuck does she know about the quality of my photographs or paintings? And excuse the fuck out of me that right now I only have the money and space to draw in my sketch book and take photos with a digital camera. Admittedly the picture up top is something I took with an iphone but I've been getting really curious in exploring the medium and the cultural connections surrounding it.  I think it adds something to the picture knowing that it exists purely in cyberspace and was taken with a camera that isn't supposed to be good for anything serious and yet looks like a very professional photograph.