Someday Can Not Be The Ruler of Today

So my dream is that someday I'll be able to attend Yale University for a master's degree in photography, but I've come to realize you can't live for someday. Right now I am living with my life on hold because I am waiting for things to change in the future, but the thing is I need to be living for now because what I am hoping for it is about as likely as winning the lottery. every year 1500 people apply to the Yale photo program and every year they only accept seven. That means my chances are less than 1 in 200 any given year. So if I want a real shot at going to that program I'm really going to need to bring up my grade point average and build a more impressive resume as which includes having some profound life experiences. The thing I most want to do right now is moved to Paris for a couple of years. I was thinking I could get a 4 x 5 view camera and a digital back with a laptop and take photographs of tourists in importance landscape locations and then use my iPhone to sell them the digital files I can email them. or maybe I could be an au pair or something like that.

Money Fuels Art

It completely drives me nuts when the only thing keeping me from creating these awesome photo series is money! I had a client lined up for a photo shoot, would have been $300 in my pocket, totally enough to get started on my series "Interior Landscapes". My fucking photo portfolio disappeared in the move. I spent four hours going through my storage space, it appears to have vanished. Granted its not enough to produce the entire series but its enough to get started and more than anything that's what I need right now. I'm reading this God awesome book called the business of being an artist. Do yourself a favor and read it if you get a chance, the kindle version is only 99¢. The next book on my reading list is "The Profitable Artist" and then I'm going to read "Untitled:Thoughts on the Creative Process". The first book is teaching me the things I wish I'd learned in school. I'm learning so many things about the art business that I didn't even know there was to learn. The big thing I want to learn about from both the first and second books is about funding for artists. It really doesn't do me too much good to learn how to sell the work till I've gotten it made. Unfortunately I'm not French so I can't type vague descriptions on note cards and call it photography.

How much life has changed lately...

So for those of you that didn't know when I first moved into my awesome life work artist loft, I had been guaranteed a gig as a graphic designer and photographer for one of the hottest clubs in the city and then after I moved in the guy flaked out. So I was in a lease and had no job. Well I was doing Task Rabbit for a while, which for me was a waste of time. I guess I've got kind of a bad attitude, but really it was a deal of I'm really not sure how to deal with people in diplomatic way when I feel they're trying to take advantage of me, and you're working with people from other countries sometimes so you get people who have a different idea about what is acceptable business behavior. Basically if you have me spend a month designing a corporate identity for you and you keep having me create multiple versions so you have lots of choices even though you were "in love" with the first one, and then keep asking for more work out of me that is beyond the original scope of the project and then give me flack because I'm not happy after I've created a logo, a corporate identity, files for you to animate for a video logo for your website, you decide you want me to create separate distinct business cards for each of your business partners when your ad said you only wanted one business card for all of you and a logo for your company, I'm going to flip the fuck out. So then I was applying for jobs like a mad man. Almost got job offers several times, actually had one for about a second until they realized that the DOL messed up on my CDL paperwork and they had to hire someone right then. Couldn't find work and had to move out before the first of May. I did get some serious work done on my painting though after I bought some medium. Now I'm living at home with my parents, again, and I'm trying to figure out where I go from here. I've got an amazing idea for an art series and I'd like to apply to graduate school but I don't have enough money for either right now so I'm trying to come up with some initial capital right now. Oh and I went on vacation with my family to Florida and we ended up meeting Beryl face to face.