Off topic brings focus

So this is an art blog. Its a written record of my thoughts and feelings of my life as it relates to my art. I feel obligated to make it known then when something deeply personal which effects my entire outlook on life shifts. I realized my beliefs today, I'm a non deist animist, meaning what I believe is of importance is the animating force within my being and living my life as the person I am, another words bringing my life and my actions into sync with who I am underneath all the bullshit. The existence of a deity is unimportant, life is about living as you truly are. This is what I believe. For me art making is a spiritual practice of attempting to bring that animating force into the world and allowing it to make the choices. Its a big choice to try to live as you want most, and this is my first attempt in a long time by putting it out there, because by releasing it into the world, I have to own that it is part of me then let it go to live and be its own thing. Scary living life, isn't it.