Sigh

Ok well, I need to put myself in a positive attitude because bitching about how much my life sucks isn't going to do anything but depress me some more. I need to figure out a way to get to Santa Monica, CA so that I can go to the Work of Art casting call. All together it comes out to about $440 to go out there on the train round trip, and stay at a hostel for 3 nights. I should probably figure on trying to put together $500 if I can so that I can eat while I'm out there. I'm considering selling my video camera, its too big, it never worked with Final Cut Pro and the only way to make it is to mail it to Germany, and I never use it because again its too big and it doesn't like to work. It is sad though because it has a gorgeous picture but again, its too big and I never use it. The thing is my parents actually bought it for me when I was in school so I don't know how they'll feel about me selling it. On the other hand, we paid like 4 or 5 thousand when we bought it new and its going on ebay for almost 3 so I'm thinking I might be able to get decent money for it. Not sure what to do.