It makes sense that my technical skills would be lacking. My undergrad program was black and white film exclusive, all my color and digital skills are mainly self taught. Still it completely knocked the wind out of my ego to hear someone in such a position of authority tell me as such. I suppose that's what my friends meant by not commercial enough.
So I heard back officially and I definitely did not get in. I'd really been looking forward to being able to build an extremely well paying career that challenged me creatively within my field.
It's hard to hear but now I know what I need to do to improve my work and chances of getting into graduate school in the future.
I'll admit I cried, I knew in my gut it was coming but I still hoped for the best. It's okay to cry privately till you feel better when things don't go as you'd hoped, on the condition that when you're done you take what you've learned, wipe your tears and chart a new course. You can't ever let the people you hope to work with or compete against, see you cry or get upset. It hurts like hell but you've just got to keep marching on.
